HERE WE ARE TWO AND ONE HALF YEARS IN MONTANA! NOW WHAT HAS CHANGED? PUPS ON THE WAY, ANY DAY, CANNOT WAIT TO SEE THEM! WE ARE ALL GUESSEING WHAT DAY AND HOW MANY. MY GUESS KEEPS WAIVERING. TRISTYN HAD TO BE PUT ON MEDS, NOT THAT WE WANTED THAT BUT PRETTY MUCH NO OTHER OPTION. HE SEEMS TO BE ADAPTING TO IT WELL NOW, BUT AT FIRST IT WAS TERRIBLE!!!! UNTIL I DECIDED TO LOWER HIS DOSAGE. WE ARE STILL SEEING A COUNSELER, THAT ACTUALLY SEEMS TO GENUINELY CARE. I WAS ADVISED TO TAKE TRISTYN OUT ...

HERE WE ARE TWO AND ONE HALF YEARS IN MONTANA! NOW WHAT HAS CHANGED? PUPS ON THE WAY, ANY DAY, CANNOT WAIT TO SEE THEM! WE ARE ALL GUESSEING WHAT DAY AND HOW MANY. MY GUESS KEEPS WAIVERING. TRISTYN HAD TO BE PUT ON MEDS, NOT THAT WE WANTED THAT BUT PRETTY MUCH NO OTHER OPTION. HE SEEMS TO BE ADAPTING TO IT WELL NOW, BUT AT FIRST IT WAS TERRIBLE!!!! UNTIL I DECIDED TO LOWER HIS DOSAGE. WE ARE STILL SEEING A COUNSELER, THAT ACTUALLY SEEMS TO GENUINELY CARE. I WAS ADVISED TO TAKE TRISTYN OUT OF SCHOOL 3 WEEKS EARLY DUE TO BEHAVIOUR OUTBURST. SO I DID THAT, QUIT MY JOB AND HAVING A TIME ADAPTING TO IT MYSELF. I AM PRAYING THAT WITH HELP FROM ONDI THAT I AM RECEIVING, THAT WE CAN GET SOMEONE IN THE MEDEIA TO LET OTHERS HEAR ABOUT OUR SITUATION THAT WE WENT THROUGH! TO LET OTHERS KNOW IT IS NOT ALWAYS WHAT YOU PICTURE A CULT TO BE, I GET TIRED OF THINKING OF IT BUT IF IT IS GOING EVEN IN MY DREAMS, WHERE I HAVE NO CHOICE, AT THE VERY LEAST, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT OR FEEL LIKE I AM. TRY ANYWAY. I AM SCARED BUT SO WHAT. IT WOULD BE SUCH A GIFT FROM GOD ABOVE TO KNOW PUTTING YOURSELF OUT THEERE MADE A DIFFERENCE.IF IN EVEN ONLY ONE PERSON'S LIFE. SO FAR MSNBC DATELINE AND LARRY KING LIVE HAVE BEEN MOST RECEPTIVE, SO ANYONE THAT IS READING THIS, PLEASE!!!! SAY A PRAYER, IF YOU BELEIVE IN PRAYER. THE ONLY OTHER THING THAT I CAN SAY IS THAT I AM SOOOO! VERY THANKFUL TO STILL HAVE MY KRISTI, WE WERE ABLE TO SHARE RECIPES LAST NIGHT, WHILE SHE WAS AT JOHN AND DEIDRA'S HOUSE, I LOVE HER DEARLY AND CANNOT WAIT TO SEE THAT PART OF MY FAMILY AGAIN HERE SOON.

DO WIDZENIA, TONYA

I THINK THAT EVERYTHING IS BEING BLOWN WAY! OUT OF PROPORTION, AS FAR AS PEOPLE'S THOUGHTS ABOUT TRISTYN. I HAD SOME FRIENDS FROM WORK TO COME OVER A FEW DAYS BACK FOR ONE TO TEACH ME SOME SOUTH AFRICAN DISHES, AND THE OTHER FROM EQUADOR JUST TO HANG OUT WITH US AND LEARN, WELL THE FOLLOWING DAY, THEY TOLD ME WHAT THEY THOUGHT OF MY FAMILY, HOW SWEET AND POLITE MY CHILDREN WERE BESIDES TRISTYN SHOWING ALL BOY IN HIM. YES NO DENY HE HAS ISSUES IN SOME AREAS, THAT I FEEL CAN BE HELPED BY THE C...

I THINK THAT EVERYTHING IS BEING BLOWN WAY! OUT OF PROPORTION, AS FAR AS PEOPLE'S THOUGHTS ABOUT TRISTYN. I HAD SOME FRIENDS FROM WORK TO COME OVER A FEW DAYS BACK FOR ONE TO TEACH ME SOME SOUTH AFRICAN DISHES, AND THE OTHER FROM EQUADOR JUST TO HANG OUT WITH US AND LEARN, WELL THE FOLLOWING DAY, THEY TOLD ME WHAT THEY THOUGHT OF MY FAMILY, HOW SWEET AND POLITE MY CHILDREN WERE BESIDES TRISTYN SHOWING ALL BOY IN HIM. YES NO DENY HE HAS ISSUES IN SOME AREAS, THAT I FEEL CAN BE HELPED BY THE COUNSELER WE SEE, IN TIME! NOTHING MAJOR IN MY EYES. I THINK THAT HE JUST TRIES TO FIT IN AT SCHOOL WITH WHAT HE THINKS IS THE "COOL KIDS" AND MAKES SOME BAD DECISIONS. THE STATE PSYCOLAGIST AND OTHER COUNSELERS AND TEACHERS ARE SUGGESTING MEDICATION, WE HAVE DECIDED NO!!! HE HAS A WONDERFUL, IMAGINATIVE MIND THAT WE ARE NOT TO DESTROY. THEY WANT AN EVALUATION, ON HIM. I TINK THAT WHAT "TRISTYN" SAYS IS TRUE, HE JUST DOESN'T LIKE THE FACT THAT MOMMY NOW WORKS AND DOESN'T HAVE TIME FOR HIM. WHEN HE TOLD ME THAT I MADE A COME HELL OR HIGH WATER POINT TO SPEND EVEN MORE TIME WITH HIM, AND HE IS DOING SOOOO MUCH BETTER. THAT IS PROOF ENOUGH FOR ME. SKYLAR IS LOVING GOING OVER TO FRIENDS HOUSES AND HAVING THEM TO COME TO OURS, DRESSING CUTE AND BEING SASSY (IN A GOOD WAY) HER GRADES HAVE IMPROVED HUGE, SHA IS DOING WELL. PARRIS JUST WON 2ND PLACE IN ONE COMPETITION, WON ANOTHER AND IS NOW GOING TO STATE!! I AM SO PROUD OF HER, SEE IT IS OK TO HAVE SOME PRIDE, IN THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE AND I AM NOT GOING TO HELL OVER IT!! HER GRADES HAVE ALSO IMPROVED ALMOST ALL A'S. AND TRAV IS STILL BEING BLESSED BY THE HAND OF GOD RIGHT NOW, DOING WELL AND SUCCEEDING. UNTIL NEXT TIME.

TRISTYN IS STILL DOING POOR TO A LARGE DEGREE BUT HAS NONE THE LESS MADE SOME IMPROVEMENT WITH THE COUNSELING HE HAS BEEN RECEIVING. WE ARE TRYING TO HELP HIM IN THE AREA OF ANGER, BECAUSE IT IS EXPLODING!! THEN TRAVIS AND I STEPPED BACK AND NOTICED THAT WE WERE CONTRIBUTING TO IT, HOW? WE ARE STILL YELLING IN THE HOUSE WHEN SOMEONE DOESN'T MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE AND DECIDES TO DO WRONG. WE DID NOT REALIZE THAT WE WERE DOING THIS SO MUCH. IT FEELS LIKE IT IS INBREED IN US AND WE OURSELVES ...

TRISTYN IS STILL DOING POOR TO A LARGE DEGREE BUT HAS NONE THE LESS MADE SOME IMPROVEMENT WITH THE COUNSELING HE HAS BEEN RECEIVING. WE ARE TRYING TO HELP HIM IN THE AREA OF ANGER, BECAUSE IT IS EXPLODING!! THEN TRAVIS AND I STEPPED BACK AND NOTICED THAT WE WERE CONTRIBUTING TO IT, HOW? WE ARE STILL YELLING IN THE HOUSE WHEN SOMEONE DOESN'T MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE AND DECIDES TO DO WRONG. WE DID NOT REALIZE THAT WE WERE DOING THIS SO MUCH. IT FEELS LIKE IT IS INBREED IN US AND WE OURSELVES WERE BLIND TO IT UNTIL NOW AND ARE HAVING A HARD TIME TO STOP OUR WRONG BEHAVIOUR, SO WHY DO WE EXPECT OUR CHILDREN TO DO ANY DIFFERENT? WE ALL DO WHAT WE SEE OUR PARENT'S OR OTHER AUTHORITIES DO. WHOEVER WE ARE RAISED BY, YES, EVEN AS ADULTS. I REMEMBER HOW RAIMUND WOULD DO WRONG AND EVERY LAST ONE OF COULD SEE IT BUT ALL WERE SCARED TO SAY IT, BECAUSE WE WOULD BE ON THE HOT SEAT. WELL, I GUARANTEE YOU OUR CHILDREN FEEL THE SAME WAY. WE ARE WORKING ON LETTING THEM EXPRESS THEIR FEELINGS MORE, LISTEN TO WHAT THEY ARE THINKING OR WE WILL NOT BE CAPABLE OF HELPING THE ONE'S THAT WE HOLD THE MOST DEAR SPACE IN OUR HEART'S. THEY WILL DO WHAT THEY WERE TAUGHT, JUST LIKE TRAVIS AND I. RAIMUND WOULD SAY, TO DEFEND HIS WRONG DOINGS "YOU PUT BLAME ON YOURSELF, STOP POINTING THE FINGER ON ANOTHER, JUST TO LOOK GOOD" WHICH HE WAS VERY GOOD AT. WE NEED TO STEP DOWN A BIT AND ALLOW OUR CHILDREN TO BE FREE AND TELL US WHAT THEY SEE BUT OF COARSE NOT ALLOW THEM TO OVER DO IT BUT FOR THEM TO FEEL LIKE A PERSON. OUR CHILDREN ARE HELPLESS AND HAVE TO DEPEND ON US, EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE AND I AM SURE MAKE WAY MORE WRONG DECISION THAN WELL,TO THROW SNOWBALLS AT THE BUS AND GET KICKED OFF FOR A WEEK(TRISTYN). WE ARE TRYING NOT TO GET SO ANGRY AT THE LITTLE THINGS AND PUT IT IN PERSPECTIVE WHAT WE HAVE DONE.

TRUST!!!!
I see is one of the LARGEST challenges there is, after being set free from a cult. I thought that I and my family had made a lot of progress, UNTIL I came across a recent challenge. My son Tristyn, who I thought was least affected, was by far the most affected out of our three children. He thinks abuse to other people (and his own self afflictions) in a sense is okay, along with racism. These are the things that were not taught through us at first but that were engraved in us al...

TRUST!!!!
I see is one of the LARGEST challenges there is, after being set free from a cult. I thought that I and my family had made a lot of progress, UNTIL I came across a recent challenge. My son Tristyn, who I thought was least affected, was by far the most affected out of our three children. He thinks abuse to other people (and his own self afflictions) in a sense is okay, along with racism. These are the things that were not taught through us at first but that were engraved in us all after a while of Raimunds teaching.We are clear again but not Tristyn, he is very confused. I had to make a decision to allow some of the most prominent people in this small community to see "JOIN US" and hear the story of the abuse first hand,at a long table with me being the one at the head (scary) along with two physiologist ,a counseler, teacher and principal. I broke down having to see the damage that was caused to my child that is still coming out in different ways and feeling helpless to help him. I allowed them to see the video ONLY to try to help them to be capable to help my son with the thinking that was placed deep inside of him. There is hope, GOD is beyond able to help ALL of US, I not only mean my family but anyone that is going through this. I love my son and my daughters dearly, along with many others. As far as my son though, I have to accept the fact that he does need more help than he has received so far. I have him seeing a counseler on a regular basis, twice a week. and hope to continue this conversation on a more positive note. but for now we are still fighting what satan has done to us. Remember never doubt your first instincts!!!!!EVER. I wish I didn't.

I wonder sometimes if there are other people that get sick and vomit before church, because they are wondering what will happen in service. I think to myself, I know I have done something wrong but I don't know what it is. ok, then what can I come up with so as I don't get rebuked? SCREW looking good I just don't want to feel like I am going to hell and dangling from a string over fire.
Now three years later, I think how I grew up in South Carolina, Bible Belt, I have always known of ...

I wonder sometimes if there are other people that get sick and vomit before church, because they are wondering what will happen in service. I think to myself, I know I have done something wrong but I don't know what it is. ok, then what can I come up with so as I don't get rebuked? SCREW looking good I just don't want to feel like I am going to hell and dangling from a string over fire.
Now three years later, I think how I grew up in South Carolina, Bible Belt, I have always known of God, unlike some of the unfortunate people. God was great and safe but NOW I am way more scared of him than as of a child.
Yes, I can see the progress but I still have so much fear in me. panick attacks in the mid of night are definitely not the way to live, thinking if I die today where will I go? not seeming to be able to find the answer. where is the comfort of the written word that is so tainted now with raimund's voice? when will this emptiness become full of knowing the truth and feeling safe again as I did as a child? when will I stop feeling so inferior to the one that I am suppose to feel so safe with, my husband,? when will my motherhood come back that was once there?
I love my husband very much and we are doing very well in all areas, not to say that it has not been a extremely hard fight and we are still trying to get to the right balance with each other and are trying not to feel condemned to hell if we make a mistake. You know, wrong attitude to each other. As far as the children they are still raising their hand to speak 1/2 the time but I do to it at work as well , they all look at me funny, my son Tristyn is drawing picts of demons at school from the picts on the wall at church but over all is improving.OH what fun to deal with that.
Today I am pissed at Raimund, I feel that he stole the safety net of God's loving mercy, a relationship with our families and who and what we really are, now tomorrow I may be wanting to place a call to him to see how he and Deborah are. Being concernered for their souls.or may want him to die I don't know I just have to concentrate on making sure I can forgive him not only for me but for my children and husband's behalf or God will not forgive me for all of my wrong doind that is done I AM SURE EVERYDAY.
I never thought it would be so hard to get out, MENTALLY!!! this is the closest I ever want ot be to a (GERMAN SHEPHERD)! a whole lot safer than Raimund.

Hi! I am tonya, just a normal average person but a survivor! I survived with the fact that i am alive and doing so much better after being in a cult, along with my husband(travis) daughters, (skylar and parris) and my son(tristyn) i was amazed that i was actually in a cult. It was extremely abusive, mentally and physically(especially to the children) but i could not see it, even after we escaped i still could not believe that i tonya stayed in this situation for three years and never saw it. ...

Hi! I am tonya, just a normal average person but a survivor! I survived with the fact that i am alive and doing so much better after being in a cult, along with my husband(travis) daughters, (skylar and parris) and my son(tristyn) i was amazed that i was actually in a cult. It was extremely abusive, mentally and physically(especially to the children) but i could not see it, even after we escaped i still could not believe that i tonya stayed in this situation for three years and never saw it. But there is hope! We now live in god's beautiful country montana. We thought we were away but found that there are cults even here. We hope to regain trust at some time to enter another church safely. We are scared but we still have trust that god will be with us and continue as he has to heal us, along with the other survivors. We say survivor, well we all are. We now have stable minds, our children are safe, we have jobs and are making it without depending on a man to direct us instead of looking to god. Yes, we still have nightmares of being back in there, or seeing someone with similarities and your stomach flips. But we are here and coming out of it everyday!!!

Questions for tonya?

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tonya, I am Deborah's sister. I am very concerned for her. She has only been allowed to visit us a few times and I feel as though she herself may very well be a victim. I am so sorry that you and your family have been hurt by raimond. He is a cold and cruel control freak and he knows exactly how I feel about him. He accused my children of several horrible things which my sister believed. How he has torn our family apart. He wouldn't even allow my sister to come when our father was dieing. He past before she got here and I know she's carrying that guilt with her always. I know she's as much to blame as he is. My husband and I watched the movie and still haven't told Deborah about it as I fear he may take her away forever. I guess what I want to know is if you ever witnessed him abusing her? I love my sister dearly and know her like no one else. Before she met him she was kind and humble with a wonderful sense of humor and a great zest for life and people. I don't know what to do to help her as I don't really know anything about her life. Please, if you can help me at all I'd appreciate it. My e-mail is traceysquarters@yahoo.com. Thank you very much for your time and believe me.....I am so, so very sorry for all your hurt. Liz

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HI LIZ, THANK YOU FOR YOUR COMPASSION. YES, HE HAS ABUSED HER "TRYING TO RELEASE THE DEMONS OF COARSE". I RECEIVED YOUR PERSONAL E-MAIL HERE AT MY HOME. I WOULD LOVE TO GIVE YOU MORE INSIGHT. PLEASE RESPOND, AND MAYBE SOMETHING CAN BE DONE, MAYBE! SHE IS PRETTY LOCKED IN "MENTALLY" I CAN SEE WHAT YOU ARE SAYING ABOUT HER HUMOR. HE SAYS THAT SHE A JOKESTER SPIRIT. SO DID TRAVIS MY HUSBAND AND JOHN DWYER. BUT THERE AGAIN IF YOU DID NOT LAUGH, YOU WERE IN REJECTION. DAMNED IF YOU DO AND DAMNED IF YOU DON'T. I TOLD YOUR SISTER THAT A COUPLE OF TIMES. HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON. BUT I CANNOT SAY THERE IS MUCH HOPE. BUT I AM WILLING TO HELP TRY.

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Hey Chickie! OMG! I can't believe how much the kids have grown! Tristan's so cute and the girls are just gorgeous! I can't wait til I get to see y'all again! I LOVE YOU! Kristy

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I LOVE AND MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND CANNOT WAIT TO MEET KYRA AND SEE JOSIAH AGAIN, AND DEIDRA, BENJAMIN, ZACHARIA, HANNAH AND JOHN. YES THEY HAVE GROWN PARRIS IS NOW TALLER THAN ME! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU IN OCT.

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Hi Tonya - I saw the movie last night in Nashville and I thank you for allowing others to learn from your experience. My question is regarding the fact that I never heard anything in the movie about the role Jesus played in Raimund's preaching. When he told everyone they were going to hell if they didn't do thus & such as he directed, what did he tell you the purpose of Jesus coming to earth and dying was for? Did you before and/or do you now believe that accepting Christ as Savior is the ONLY thing you need to do to go to Heaven and it can NEVER be taken from you and you be sent to hell? Thanks again for your bravery and sharing. Michele in Nashville

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HI MICHELE! I AM VERY INTERESTED TO SEE YOU WRITING TO HEAR ALL THE DIFFERENT THOUGHTS ON THESE QUESTIONS. WELL, LET ME TRY TO ANSWER THIS ON TODAYS EMOTIONS AND THOUGHTS. IF YOU WERE GOING DOWN A ROAD DRUNK AND HIT AND KILLED SOMEONE, THE JUDGE GIVES YOU A SENTENCE AND YOU CARRY IT OUT "HOPEFULLY ALIVE" THEN YOU ARE FREE, WHAT IF YOU DO IT AGAIN? WHAT THEN, ARE YOU GOING TO GET OFF FREE? OR DO WE NEED FORGIVENESS? DON'T WE NEED FORGIVENESS AGAIN? IS IT TO WHERE WE ARE SCOTT FREE AND COVERED BECAUSE WE FAILED BEFORE AND ALREADY PAID FOR THAT SIN? WILL THE JUDGE NOT PROSECUTE US AGAIN HARDER? WHY DO WE READ THE BIBLE AND FIND THINGS TO COMFORT OURSELVES? NO I DON'T THINK YOU CAN DIE AND GO TO HELL AS EASILY AS HE PUT IT. I DO NOT THINK YOU CAN GO TO CHURCH ON SUNDAY MORNING, GO HOME AND GET DRUNK OR START CURSING, BACKBITING, GOSSIP, ETC. AND CLAIM SALVATION! I THINK THAT IF YOU ARE SLAPPING GOD IN THE FACE, YOUR GOING TO HELL. I THINK THAT IT REALLY REVOLVES YOUR HEART!!!!! ARE YOU DEPENDING ON THE WORDS "LORD PLEASE FORGIVE ME" OR DO WE HAVE GRIEF OVER US DISRESPECTING OTHERS, THINKING PERVERTED THOUGHTS ETC. OR JUST DEPEND ON THE WORDS AS IF GOD DOESN'T ALREADY HOW WE REALLY FEEL, DOWN DEEP. I THINK THAT YOU CANNOT SAY WORDS TO SAVE YOU IN FEAR OF HELL. RAIMUND WOULD TEACH ABOUT JESUS AND HIS COMING BACK. HE ALSO TAUGHT, IF YOU ARE A ADULTRESS AND YOU GET HIT BY A TRUCK YOUR ON YOUR WAY HOME YOU ARE NOW GOING TO HELL. JESUS DIED FOR US TO HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS "GRACE" NO DAMNATION TO THE OLD TESTAMENT OF THE LAW. HE WOULD CRY AND TELL US CERTAIN DAYS HOW WE WERE FAILING HIM, OH, HOW WE FELT HELPLESS!!! IT IS ALL STILL A BLUR TO ME. WE HAVE REBELLED IN MANY DIFFERENT IN MANY WAYS SPEECH, DRINKING "NOT DRUNK" BUT GOD FORBID WE DRINK ALCHOHOL. RAIMUND TAUGHT ALMOST ANYTHING WOULD SEND US TO HELL AND THAT MAKES US WONDER,PLEASE KEEP ALL OF US IN PRAYER. I HAVE LOVE AND FEAR OF GOD, SOMETIMES A HEALTHY AND SOMETIMES UNHEALTHY.DON'T BE A HYPOCRITE. DON'T GO BY WHAT YOU WERE TAUGHT IN CHURCH "RELIGIOUSITY" HOW WOULD YOU TREAT YOUR OWN CHILD? THROW THEM OUT BY THEM MAKING A MISTAKE? NO!!!! I WANT HIM TO LOVE ME AND BE WITH HIM. ALL OF WHAT WE WENT THROUGH, WAS FOR A PURPOSE. GOD WILL PULL THROUGH FOR US ALL, I KNOW!THANK YOU FOR QUESTIONS. PLEASE FEEL FEEL TO PERSONALLY E-MAIL ME AT TLTINMT@HOTMAIL.COM AND BY THE WAY I WAS BROUGHT UP BELIEVING THAT ONCE SAVED ALWAYS SAVED. NOW IT'S TRICKY IN THOUGHTS. TONYA

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How did Raimund Melz get his start? Who ordained him and what happened to accountability? I understand what many people go through because it almost happened to me. There was a lot of emotional abuse... mind control. One thing I did was call attention to what was going on outside of our leadership... outside of the group. I'm thankful that God did not allow this group to continue. I found out later that the pastor was arrested for possession of cocaine and hydrocodone with intent to sell for which he received what they call 10 day shock time. Plus he had been living with a woman for 3 years which he later married for 3 years. They were married in February 2007 and she divorced him November 2007. He never apologized, blamed everyone else for the ministry failing... it was a nightmare. I'm afraid he is using these same tactics on another woman. Right now he cannot leave Kansas because he's on probation but he has put in for a motion to have that terminated. I just pray his parole officer, the prosecuting attorney, and judge will see through this smoke screen. He does have a very charismatic personality. The pastor I'm talking about had a small construction company too and many people were working for him. AND he has this reputation as a church planter.... Lord have mercy on us all!

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I am SOOO! sorry that you had to go through that. THANK GOD, LORD,JESUS ABOVE THAT you did not get capped in it. How did you know what to look for? how did you know to escape that dangerous situation? what was happening to give suspicion, People need to know. I obviously didn't. I now know a lot more, after the fact. The PASTOR has put a bad mark on the name of such a wonderful GOD. I find it so sick for a man to preach in the name of JESUS but not act of it. I myself can tell you, I SCREW up all the time, but to act of a saint and hurt people, this is not acceptable. Raimund built a hotel in wynham NY, and created a "church" in the basement of it. You know "vunerable" people, who need a hope on life. that is all it takes. His accountability? he has NONE!!!!!1 the LAW system lets criminals get away! the real ones, over all. They should have done something about this and other situations . even evaluated more but did not. He is free as a bird, continuing his doings, that no one will stop. So, considering that there are people out there that the LAW will not stop, tell everyone the signs that you know, yourself ,from your own experience.

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Tonya, I don't have any questions for you. I just wanted to let you know that I am in fact periodically checking in on your blog for updates, and I'm praying for you. -Anonymous Friend in Christ

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I VERY MUCH APPRECIATE YOUR SUPPORT, THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS, WE NEED THEM THEM , ALL OF US, YOUR FRIEND IN CHRIST

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Hi, my name is Wayne.I googled Raimund Melz in order to see if I could get an address to contact him and I ran across a series of websites including the "Join Us" film. I knew Raimund back in 1980 when he first became a christian. I used to work for him. As a matter of fact he was the best man at my wedding. I met my wife now of 24 years while I worked for him and attended church with him. I remember when he first met Deborah his wife, he thought she was a loon. As I look back at our relationship, me as a young man and he as a father figure and mentor his need for controll was so obvious. It was the cause for our relationship to fall apart. Raimung melz could never do anything half way. This was certainly true of his actions at work, at home, the way he supported and started numerous churches. He is a natural born leader, unfortunately the way I saw it, he wanted to not only build the churches but to be the pastor without first becomming the student and getting the education first. He has a "I want it now mentality". Mind you I loved the guy and I overlooked his over zelousness twords christianity as being a new believer at the time. I was born and raised in a christian home but was in a back slidden state when I first met Raimund. Raimund was instrumental in me rededicating my life back to the Lord and bringing my wife into the christian faith. He taught me a profession of which I'm proud to say is still my profession today, and of that I am thankfull for God allowing Raimund into my life. I can certainly relate to you and the others in your congrugation at the time falling under the so called Raimund spell of needing to please him any way possible. It is especially hard when you rely on him or his company for employment as well. Thank God he allowed the right circumstances to arise so that I was able to stick up for myself and sever our relationship. Now twenty five years later I sometimes think about him and Deborah and wonder where they are and what they are doing. I'm glad you were able to recieve the help you needed. I hope you haven't given up on God that would be an even worse tragedy.

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I can probably give you a little more info on how to locate Raimund, if you want to contact me by my e-mail Tltinmt@hotmail.com. I find it so very sad about raimunds mental state. I think that he loves the Lord but at the same time LOVES to endure power while others suffer to give it to him, including how he has betrayed his wife and deep down she knows it but will not allow herself to except the fact of it. I beleive with all of my heart she will meet and be with GOD for all eternity, I and my children even miss her. As far as Raimund I just feel bad for him and wish he could see the damage he has caused to so many people and that it isn't right. We are still trying and will be for a long time to heal. As far as my family, we are still very confused and are scared to listen to a man tell us the right way to "make it to Heaven" but we know GOD is real and pray that the LORD will help us clearly be able to see the truth. and apply it to our everyday lives. Thank you for your encouragement. I hope that you will watch the full movie and ask others to see it as well, It could be ment for someone that you EVEN know, that is or will be involved in something so tragic. Nobody knows what it is like to go through it until it is to late. BUT this can slowly be stopped! That I know you understand. I am so happy for you to have escaped. You and your wife take care, Tonya

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Tonya, I just watched some of the clips that you and the kids were in....I am so so so sorry that all of you went through that. I don't have any questions for you...but I just want you to know that I love you and I hope that you know that Rob and I are here for you and all the kids...if you ever need us please just call. I told him tonight that we need to get a webcam hooked up so that you two can grow closer. Parris has my email address so please keep in touch...and tell her to call or email me anytime. Remember that GOD will bring you through this...keep your head up and search for answers. I am glad that you are away from all of that evil. I LOVE YOU AND GOD BLESS! Missy Davis

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THANK YOU for your love and support! and understanding.

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Hi, would you have anything on Jewish mind control? Thanks

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I would love to hear more, I don't think that it matters what your beliefs are period! If you have to ask permission from another individual on any daily functions in life, Then there is a problem. Please, Why do you ask about Jewish mind control only? Your Wife or Husband can use the sane methods that a religious leader can use. All I can say is to think for yourself, always be open for ADVICE, but not to let people make any decisions for you. It's between you and your maker, not between you and a man.